Time flys by

So I've really been trying to school but soccer has really affected me lately. Like I have nooo time for anything anymore and it's just really difficult. I guess I have to learn to work better with my time cause if I don't I'm not gonna have time for anything anymore. Anyone got any ideas.

Roller Coaster of a life

Ok... so I just found out that I'm going to busch garden's for Thanksgiving. Don't get me wrong, I love rollercoaster and rides and stuff like that. 

BUT... I was really looking forward to the whole sit down meal and spending time with family and friends. 

This has really hit me hard with my patience cause my parents know how much I love thanksgiving but I guess have to give them a break right? I mean they're just trying to do what's best for me and I have to enjoy my time, there no matter what.

It's Turkey Season

So ik it's super early, but I love Thankgiving and I really can't wait. The feeling of being grateful and being with those you love, just makes me feel warm inside and don't get me wrong, eating the food is also great but the tenderness of being with friends and family just can't compare. Around this time fo the year, I feel like I begin to become a better person. Like all the good feelings of the holiday's really gets to me. So maybe I'll be able to improve in my virtuous. I believe that I will be able to improve on my patience and forgiveness towards others. Now my self control, as long as you keep me away from that turkey, I'll be fine.

Living my best life

ok... so this week has started of pretty good. I've feel super relaxed lately. It's a new quarter. Im living my best life right now.

Aside from that I feel like I like really been improving on my virtues.  I am really working on my self-control and making sure to set my limits. Also it's getting easier for me to forgive people. Although it's really been tempted lately,  I have managed to keep my cool.  And trust me when I say that I've been tempted, I HAVE BEEN TEMPTED. Some people can really get on my nerve sometimes but it's okay. Because I forgive them.

Now with my patience, I may still need a little work with that.  Although I have been patient with people. I just sometimes can get pushed a little too hard and I explode or sometimes I get so impatient in lines or something that I give up. Trust me though, I will get better.

Sleep is for the weak

So like I've just been everywhere lately. I can't wait for this week to end, so that my stress can like escape from my body. I have not been sleeping for the past 2 weeks. Like zero sleep. I ended up having to miss school cause I just couldn't keep my eyes open. This just made me miss even more stuff and now I'm behind in stuff. It's just all so complicated. This has really been affecting my progress in perfecting my patience. So I'm going to really have to work on this.
Aside from this, I think I've really been getting better at forgiveness and self-control. I have really been restraining myself out lashing out at people and controlling myself on how much I buy at stores and on the internet.

Anxiety sucks!

So I don't know why but lately I've felt like so much pressure. Like I feel like today anxiety and negative vibes overcame me. I don't know if it's because I'm not doing that well in school right now or that my mom left to China or that like a lot of stuff isn't going right at the moment. I hope I get better though cause I feel miserable and it's unhealthy for. 

Wow... sorry guys I sound really sad. I promise I'll get over this soon. 

A bit of a step-back

Lately, I have been feeling extremely stress. Like unimaginably stressed. It's like I can barely think anymore. There's just a lot going on at once.

So... let's start off with school. It's just been a lot lately and I don't mean a lot of homework because, honestly, they've us so much time to finish an assignment. It's just the pressure of doing well and making my parents proud. Also, I'm having so much trouble understanding certain things and really grasping what the teachers are trying to teach me.

Secondly, I am turning 15 soon and honestly this is killing me cause I am having a quinces and for the past for weeks, its been quince this and quince that. Everywhere I go, all I hear is quince and during the weekends, I'm either out with my friends, or doing something for my quinces. There's just so much happening at the same time.

I don't think all this healthy for me because I just feel like I'm always anxious and always feeling like there's something to be done. I have million thoughts in my head and I'm always forgetting everything because I have a million other things to do. It's just so much, in such a little amount of time.

Life's a party

Lately I've been very anxious, stressed,  and especially tried. If you see me at school, you'll see I try to find any chance to fall asleep and I'm like moving in slow motion. It's really not a good thing. I don't want to but the full blame on school because, while school is very much stressing me out, I also find anytime out of school to be out late with my friends. I don't get home late until super late and then I finish homework even later. I guess I do this because the friends I hang with at night are friends I don't see at school. They are from schools all over Miami and this is the only chance we get to see each other.  I don't think this healthy for me and it's also very irresponsible of me and I shouldn't be doing this. I am trying to fix this problem but I mean non of us are perfect right. I'm just a stay up all night, sleep all day type of girl.

Don't get me wrong though, I may be leaving my homework for late at night but I am still staying up even later cause I don't understand a lot of the homework. Especially greek math.  Greek math is giving me a lot of stress. I am unable to understand the material and I can't understand the teacher. It's just been very difficult for me in that class. I'm going to really try to fix these situations and build myself up to be a better person. Wish me luck!!

A Spontaneous Day

Have you guys ever had to best day ever and wished that it would stay the way forever. Your energy is just so high and exciting and like you feel like you could rule the world at that very moment. You just feel like this:

Saturday was just a day beyond all days. It all started off early in the morning. I, surprisingly, woke up around 8:30 in the morning and took a shower. Let me remind you that I am a very, very, very sleep person. So, finding me up and running at 8:30 is a rare thing to see. But anyway, I woke up, got out of the shower, changed, and checked my phone. I start freaking out cause I had like 23 messages and 2 phone calls from my friend, Abigail. She wanted to know if she could come over to my house. Now don't get me wrong, she didn't do this just to come over to my house at 8:30 in the morning. You see the thing was that today a group of my friends and I, including Abigail, were planning on going to the zoo and she need a last minute ride. I said of course cause my parents already had said the day before that Rosy and Roxy, my two other friends, could come with us too. So around 9:30 the three of them got dropped off at my house. Before we left the house, I ate some scrambled eggs cause let me tell you, when I say I was starving, it is because I could eat a 5 course meal.

So we go to the zoo around and 10:30 and I was there with my group of friends. It was honestly so much fun. We walked everywhere and looked at all the animals. Mostly we made lots of dumb jokes. Around 1, people started getting hungry(and my people I meant me). So we  left the zoo and we to a pizza place near by. At this point I felt like I was on cloud 9. I was fully fed and with the people I love. Nothing could've ruined the moment.

After this, we all went to my friend's house for a while and just stayed there . This part of the day was super relaxing. I was either sleeping or laying down on my phone. We were just chilling for a while. Finally around 8:30 we decided that some of us wanted to go play soccer. I was so tired but I knew my dad was gonna force me so I went anyway.  We ate again before we left, cause obviously I am a healthy child and I eat my 3 important meals of the day. After eating, we went to the field. Let tell you I have never played worse but I have never had more fun. I was barely able to run and could barely kick the ball but I just had so much fun playing with my friends. Finally I went home and I watched some TV before going to sleep. Around 2 in the morning, I knocked out.

This day was not planned at all. It was all very spontaneous and unpredictable. This isn't something I usually do cause I like everything being planned.  I realized from this day that I had to let loose a little more and learn to just go with the flow. Although this isn't a virtue that I was trying to work on, I still feel that it helped me improve and become a better person. I learned that from being relaxed and not stressed I can become easier to work with and easier to get along with.

A Disaster Start of a Weekend

This weekend has started out terrible. Have you guys ever made plans, that you were waiting the whole week for but last minute it got complicated so everything got cancelled? Well If you haven't, you're lucky. By how this weekend is starting, it may as well be called the worst weekend ever.

 I had plans to hangout with my friends from Church and from school together. I was really excited for this. I mean my two favorite group of people were going to finally meet. The plan was to all hangout together and then after two of my closest friends we're going to sleepover. The next day, I was supposed to take all of us to another friend's house. As you can tell I had a pretty eventful weekend planned.

Friday morning I got to school. I was so anxious for school to end and of course school felt so long. I was watching minute by minute pass by but finally it was 3:30. I ran out an jumped on the bus to get home. I got home around 4:30. As soon as I got home, I texted my friend asking her if she was on her way to hangout. It was all fine and everything was going as planned. Around 5:30 all hell broke loose. I got a text from my friend saying she couldn't make it because her parents were angry at he. I have to admit I was pretty bummed out but I tried to look on the positive side that I still was going to see some of my other friends.

Around 6, I got another text from my other friend. She was also unable to come. When I got the news, I was so ready to break down. I mean my weekend was just falling to piece. Later around 6:15, my parents came home telling me I couldn't go. At this point my heart was completely shattered. I mean I know that this is such an exaggeration for such a small thing but it was the moment of how things happened. It went from the best weekend ever to the chaos in the span of an hour.

I ended up getting really worried cause I still really wanted to see my friends, cause I see them every Friday. I decided to be patient and see how this all turned out. It was finally 7 o'clock. My parents told me I could go see my friends but the problem was that everyone had already cancelled. So they took me to my Christian Youth group.

When I was telling you I was praying, it mean I was literally begging God so that I could see my friends today. I tried being patient and hope for the best. I finally arrived to my church and there she was. MY BESTFRIEND!!  She came. I was a very happy child at this point. Even though I still haven't had the chance to unite my favorite people in the world. It was still a pretty good weekend. Most importantly, I learned that I'm going to face a lot of obstacles in my life and not everything is gonna turn out as planned but I have to keep my head up, be patient, and hope for the best.

A quick change.

Forgivness is something that my whole life I had difficulties with. I was holding grudges and distancing myself from people, who I could have given a second chance. This week I have attempted to be more forgiving to people and I feel so relieved. I feel at peace cause I know I have made the right decision and I know I am happy. Honestly this choice has been the best choice ever. I've changed in a matter of days. I hope that I am able to continue this way and be able to positively change my other negative traits.

Slowly making a better me

My 3 virtues

Have you ever got “accidentally” hit by someone? Did you feel like beating them up at that moment?
Did you or did you forgive them? The right decision would’ve have been to forgive them because
while you may be mad, you have to be the bigger person. I have a problem with forgiveness.
It takes me a while before I can finally accept that what they said or did was not something that
I should hold a grudge for. It is not healthy for me to hold on to a problem for such a long time. In order to
fix this, I have will try to make it a habit, to take into consideration the problem and forgive the person,
so that I don’t keep so many grudges in my life and learn to move on. This is something that as a child
I have been taught but never fully grasped.

During my childhood, my mother has also told me that “ Patience is key”. I am almost 100%
sure that this virtue is taught in every family household. While my mother has tried teaching me this
for the past 14 years, I have never been able to comprehend and really take in this virtue. I have trouble
being patient. When it comes to making lines, or counting down the minutes for a package to arrive ,
or any type of waiting I usually end up giving up because I need things to happen at that exact moment.
Working to improve my patience will be difficult but I will try to force myself not to quit when things don't
happen at the moment I want them too. In order to do this, I will attempt to stay in that long line or try to
stay calm when one of my million of online packages is taking to long to come.

Whenever I get the chance to buy something online, I take it. My house has package from package
from package arriving everyday. It’s not even all clothes.We buy from phones to appliances.  
My family has no self-control when it comes to online shopping. Honestly, I feel this is something
we should all try to fix together. We don't need half the stuff we buy and the money could be used for
better use. This is why I plan to restrain myself from buying things on the internet. Hopefully my decision
will influence my family and we could all improve in our situation.

"A picture can say a thousands words."